Why?!
Mood:  sad
why dint he say a hi? and why did he keep his ;Not at my desk thing? udhar bhi away... this is really bad...i have a feeling hes really pissed somethg is wrong... i dunno what! but wtf hes not talking to me! wth... and today wen i returned his dcom book... dint even smile at all... no smile... no other small talk.. jes bye .,.. also asked whether he has to pay me for the binding! idiot... i felt angry the moment he said that.. and then in a sec the anger made way for hurt.. seriously.. it hurt wen he said that.., and the way he said that.. somethgs is really wrong with him.. or rather may be me? hmm may be its me.. oh god.. i cant help feelin sick of all this... and hes doing all this when hez actually goin to leave in a few days... shit... instead of talking all day n night.. he doesnt even talk when i cum onl... and dint reply to those offliners i sent him.. also when he messaged, no hi or bye... jes the point.. can u come at 1 30? chii... this is so bad.. i feel ugly..really bad...

And worst part is i ve never had a fight or somethg with him.... and some stupid misunderstanding makes him behave like this... once i know wat wrong i did.. or whatever is the reason.. i dunno wat i ll do... shit.. this is really bad... oh gawwwddd... and hes gone says offline.. where as i think i know hes there online .. talking to arti.. am not sure.. but yes i guess he does talk to her.. well.. theres somethg called self respect.. now am not going to give him a call or message him or send him an offliner.. why shud i? if he doesnt want to talk, then am not going to play second fiddle to anyone... and hes doing all this when he knows hes going to leave..

ok lets c if he says a hi or smthg... hes there onl now....

Oh god.. plz pray for me... for us....

What more do I need?
Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: Woh Lamhe woh baatein
Welll nothings going well it seems. Like yest., when the pony tailed guy was there with me in the lift, I took no initiative to spark up a conversation. Or like today, when tht curly haired guy was standing in the long queue for the lift, I ran down the stairs. Could have waiting till all the others wud have gone, and then cud have waited for the next round. Idiot. Stupid. Silly. Am making matters worse for myself. But one thing I dint understand was why did the curly haired guy turned and changed his seat?

Another bad attempt at running away was when I saw apna Harry Potter ( I think it was him) and instead of saying a hi or something, just kept walking! What a super idiot I am!! But may be that was because he got up and starting walking towards the lift, whereas I was walking towards the exit.

Seems like am getting bad at starting conversations. I must take the initiative the next time. Or atleast not shy away from them. Let the others take. But atleast be there for the conversation to start. Now theres just one more day of full study. Perhaps two. But thats it. Then the exams end. So wont be able to be there for hours like I do now. So better take the iniative or face the consequences and my own conscience.

Ciao.